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He dont even know how Im hurting right now. Im sitting nextto him fighting these tears back. I know I aint wrong for this. I asked him right before I peeped the messages and he straight lied. Like damn fa real?? I just wanted him to admit it if he did and I wouldve got a little irritated nd pissed yea but right now I feel super disrespected he dont care about my feelings or he just ain lookin at how him lying affects me. A lie period to me is a lot more than it may be to other people. Ive been fed so many lies before and got hurt in the end and so when someone lies to me all it can do is hurt me.::: But I mean what can I do??? I feel like when I take some steps i end up getting knocked back down. But its my fault. Its me its bc of how I am. Im all fucked up I already know. I got the issues..... I just gotts learn to be good enough not just for him for myself....: fuck im such a stupid person.

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