Smh

I feel so dumb and pissed
I feel like everything was built on lies. Smh.
Never trust em. He tellin his boy he wit bitches but tellin me its a lie.

Hmmmm?

Ill be damned to let another dude come wit his bull shit and try to play me for a fool.

Unh unhb
See I got somethin for people like this.
For muthafuckas who be tryna deceive a bitch nd play a role on me.it is super coooo though.
It aint like I never been hurt before
I learned how to get over it.

&& I will again.
Boo yesterday once I read those emails ive checked out and
Chellie boom has checked in

what a nice day with me the mr nd liah. we had a great time at least i thought so. i can admit im not used to being home with my man being faithful and just tryna be a good woman. shit i know im not perfect but i love this man!

!!!!!!!!

Im screaming in my head because Im so fuckin sick and tired of being lied to!!!

The worst thing to to do is LIE!!

Theres nothing I cant stand more than a LIAR!!!!!!!!

You wanna hide the fact that your a manwhore too late....

You prove yourself wrong!! Every fuckin time!! When ypu coule just bereal then Id have no choice but to accept something but when you lie...


*sigh*

I feel hurt betrayed disappointed letdown and so fuckin lowwwwwwwww. I feel like dirt like a piece of shit. Because if I was anything more thAn that youd respect me. youd be honest with me but noooo

instead you choose to hurt me!!!!!

why????????

The sad shit is sittin here cryin like a dumb bitch and you gon be good..

but its ok when you leave im going to wrap my belt around my neck tie it to my closet bar and hold my legs up then go off the bin. Ill find a way bc i cant do this anymore. Fuck my life man

fml

fml
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f wishing i could blow my brains out right now.....

mann

I feel betrayed, stupid, and just so many other emotions right now.

GoodNight.

....

He dont even know how Im hurting right now. Im sitting nextto him fighting these tears back. I know I aint wrong for this. I asked him right before I peeped the messages and he straight lied. Like damn fa real?? I just wanted him to admit it if he did and I wouldve got a little irritated nd pissed yea but right now I feel super disrespected he dont care about my feelings or he just ain lookin at how him lying affects me. A lie period to me is a lot more than it may be to other people. Ive been fed so many lies before and got hurt in the end and so when someone lies to me all it can do is hurt me.::: But I mean what can I do??? I feel like when I take some steps i end up getting knocked back down. But its my fault. Its me its bc of how I am. Im all fucked up I already know. I got the issues..... I just gotts learn to be good enough not just for him for myself....: fuck im such a stupid person.

bdhdhdhdhf

Im trying!!!

Im trying so hard not to be that bitch but I feel it seeping out of me.

Maybe thats just me.

??


Im just so sick & tired of being sick & tired.